Hey everyone! well like so many others im not really into the whole xanga business right now so ill leave you with these thoughts...

I love you not as something private and personal, which is my own, but as something universal and worthy of love which I have found.
--Henry David Thoreau

When it is time to die, let us not discover that we never lived.
--Henry David Thoreau

How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.
--Henry David Thoreau

... You know one thing that iv realized is that though were young we never know when our time comes... so live life .. live life as if its your last day every day dont hold back on those things you feel.. share them. If you care about someone tell them , if you've allways wanted to do something do it because you never know if you'll ever have that chance again..

I woke up this morning thinking this day was going to be a pretty trashy day... I mean i woke up thinking im going to quit football, I dont feel good, and I still havent talked to that girl...

So this is how my day went.. went to first hour not feeling good.. then we had chapel which I was late to so I sat in the very back by myself.. then came 3rd hour.. half way through I get called to the office so when I go up to the office Mr.Steppen told me that I needed to go to work... so that was a look up I got paid to skip school.. so I decided that on my way I was going to just stop by coaches office and tell him so I went by and he wasnt there but when i walked by I saw "the Girl" so i was like well I should go say hey.. so i did but on my way i ran into Brook and we started talking what I didnt know is that their friends so  I met her and shes really cool...

Now my day is looking up so you know im thinking idk i guess its all good you know im still quitting football but o well.. anywho after school I went to tell coach and guess what he said... o Yea well you know thats funny cause we just put you on special teams and if Brett is hurt that means your going to play some at corner..... so i decided to change my plans and im sticking with football... yep so all in all i had a great day.. made some money, met "the Girl" and im going to play friday night... Yep!! Great day.

OK so their is this new girl and i dont know why but i find her to be so attractive... im serious i havent been atttracted to anyone since prom last year so i mean this is crazy... Gosh she is so good looking to me.. its just crazy.. thought i would just voice that

Well once again iv reached another point in my life where i have to grow... You know it use to really rube me the wrong way this whole growing situation but now its not so bad because when a time comes in my life that is trying or streaching I just realize that im maturing and growing closer to God you know...

You know i'v taken in the comments from everyone about my "friend"... well flip who cares its me you know it and I know it so lets just move one... anyways iv been really thinking about what everyone has said and I pretty much am going to do what iv been doing.. just not care... because true I do care about how she's doing ( which i guess is a bad thing) all it does is make things hard for her and i really dont want that.. maybe one day we can be good buds again.. not saying we arent friends but seeing how  we use to day that makes every thing "different" which i want everyone to know right now that I think that is the dummest thing in the world cause im not trying to get her back as my G/F I just want to be really cool with her like I am with everyone els.. but no every time i do that its different with her cause we use to day.... GRRRR... but thats life and so im just going to go with it... maybe the less I care the more things will go my way.. you never know while im in the process of not caring i'll find someone.. but really who flippen cares im 18...